Hey Baby Girl,
On our walk yesterday you were so upset. I know you wanted to go the short way to the park, and I wanted to get some exercise, so I took a different route. I tried to explain to you we would get there eventually, we were just going a different way, but you were so mad at me! You couldn’t believe I would go the way of my choosing when we so easily could have gone the way of yours. You couldn’t believe I wouldn’t stick to doing things the way you had in mind.
Later I received a phone call reminding me that God had chosen a different route in our walk too. As we walked home from the park, you asked me why I was crying. It was then that I realized I was crying because I wanted to go the OTHER way. I know God and others have tried to explain it to me; that His ways are not my ways, and His thoughts are not my thoughts. That he has “something better” in mind and always my best interest in His heart, but sometimes I can’t hear it over my own screaming to have my own way.
Being a little person is hard isn’t it honey? But I got you girl and more importantly our heavenly Daddy has us both.
A few weeks ago, you told me you had a dream about Jesus. I said, “What did you say to him?”
“I said, ‘My heart is scared.’
“What did he say?”
“Nothing. He just laid down next to me and we went to sleep.”
Of course He did! Thank you Jesus for making yourself real to my baby and making yourself real to me, over and over again. I trust you, but my heart is scared too. Lord I believe, help my unbelief.