This picture describes how I feel after going from 0-30 hours of work (outside the home) this week:
I have realized an area where I’ve grown that I need to share.
Being an introvert that is a pastor’s wife and now a mom has definitely had its challenges. Insert Note: Introverts like people, they just fill up their energy tank alone, and then they enjoy people, not the other way around. So, it would be challenging in that sometimes I don’t have the margin I think I need in order to function at a high social capacity.
However, over the past 4 years of being in ministry with John, God has been teaching me the principal of what I’m going to call “Manna rest.” Manna- the food God provided for the Israelites in the wilderness, but told them to only take enough as they needed. No more, no less. (Exodus 16). Each person who followed God’s instruction (through Moses) had just what they needed. No one was to keep any until the next day, i.e. store it up, save it for the future. They were to trust God to provide.
But there’s always that guy.
“However, some of them paid no attention to Moses; they kept part until morning, but it was full of maggots and began to smell.” Exodus 16:20.
Because that wasn’t part of the plan. Oh Israelites. You don’t follow directions very well, do you?
How is it that you question God’s provision for your daily food, right after he provides literally bread from heaven. Still think he forgot about you?
But I do this with REST. I think I have to bank up rest time into a weekend. How unhealthy this has become for me. I neglect to enjoy the simplicity that comes during the week. I think and live for specific days planned for rest rather than realizing God commands rest, therefore, he will provide as much as I need.
Oh for grace to trust him more.